I stood there catching my breath. A gush of thoughts were racing in my mind. “You don’t even believe in my ability,” I sighed. “No one does, I was more strong earlier, don't know where I lost my courage and the so called 'I-can-do-this' nature".And I deeply fear whether it would affect my company http://www.anabytes.com/
Not assuming myself as a superwoman or other things, still something deep inside is haunting me like anything. I am realizing this is not the person whom I was and would be.
A metaphorical mirror – a projection of my own reality. I’d hit a wall. Exhausted physically and emotionally from working 100-hour weeks, it was now as clear as day: I had lost my way in believing in me.
This wasn't about others, it was about my own relationship with myself. And I am realizing it very pathetically.I need to do something better. At the very context of this blog writing even, I am not that satisfied as I was when I won the Bloggers Award two years before.
Usually fueled by a quiet confidence, I’d become worn down. Paralyzed from making decisions as big as the best way to issue company right down to the minutiae of which Facebook filter to use. I was plagued with self doubt. Which was the best way forward? What are all the possible outcomes? Are things succeeding or failing? Who can and will help me?Am I and my company following the right path?
If you are the one who is struggling between the Start-up fag and its wide opportunities, you might be able to figure my feelings out. Unfortunately, I've battled with feeling the opposite for most of my life. Couple this with an energetic drive and I have a delicate tension to balance.
Sometimes I make a visit to the nearest bookshop and get the most fatty books defining the marketing strategy or Short tips on Business and end up in utter disappointment. While on the other hand, I download sample books on Creative Writing and How to be a Successful Entrepreneur. The result is nothing more in special.
The thing about entrepreneurship is that you’re forever operating outside a box – or known boundaries. “The trouble with the world is that the stupid are cocksure and the intelligent are full of doubt.” ~Bertrand Russell. Oh yes, I am more doubtful.
This freedom can be crippling. Your confidence can be built to egocentric levels one day and smashed down to nothing the next. You contemplate how taking a job would feel like a sweet retirement. You are drowning in advice and critical feedback from everyone, and forget what it was like when you were in that position. You look around at everyone’s social media show-reels and wonder if they are going through the same.
Many a times, I feel our show-reel is much better than others and another time , I feel we are sitting idle in our office not knowing what to do next.
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It’s only now that publications like Inc. are uncovering tales from founders with articles such as The Psychological Price of Entrepreneurship. Is it just psychological crisis they are facing? no, in fact there are hell lot more.
How our company can be profiled in a national newspaper one day, an incredible co-founder join me the next and our growth be up 50% month/month by the New Year– and still feel this way.
It’s natural we want to keep pushing, but it’s important to recall the wins so you can curb any self doubt. One helpful tool is iDoneThis, which will show you what you did rather than your to-do list.
Self-doubt never disappears. Over time, you just get better at dealing with it. It will greet you every time you fall out of your comfort zone and whenever you strive to do something great. But know that it’s not something you have to fear or resent. Your doubts are only thoughts, not your future.”
While enjoying the status quo of a Entrepreneur, I want to do something more — even more. And this time, maybe I can call itself as my first New Year Resolution, this time , I am not letting my spirit go down in any ways. And with a sigh I'm realizing my past and want to do really BIG this time.
Not assuming myself as a superwoman or other things, still something deep inside is haunting me like anything. I am realizing this is not the person whom I was and would be.
A metaphorical mirror – a projection of my own reality. I’d hit a wall. Exhausted physically and emotionally from working 100-hour weeks, it was now as clear as day: I had lost my way in believing in me.
This wasn't about others, it was about my own relationship with myself. And I am realizing it very pathetically.I need to do something better. At the very context of this blog writing even, I am not that satisfied as I was when I won the Bloggers Award two years before.
Usually fueled by a quiet confidence, I’d become worn down. Paralyzed from making decisions as big as the best way to issue company right down to the minutiae of which Facebook filter to use. I was plagued with self doubt. Which was the best way forward? What are all the possible outcomes? Are things succeeding or failing? Who can and will help me?Am I and my company following the right path?
If you are the one who is struggling between the Start-up fag and its wide opportunities, you might be able to figure my feelings out. Unfortunately, I've battled with feeling the opposite for most of my life. Couple this with an energetic drive and I have a delicate tension to balance.
Sometimes I make a visit to the nearest bookshop and get the most fatty books defining the marketing strategy or Short tips on Business and end up in utter disappointment. While on the other hand, I download sample books on Creative Writing and How to be a Successful Entrepreneur. The result is nothing more in special.
The thing about entrepreneurship is that you’re forever operating outside a box – or known boundaries. “The trouble with the world is that the stupid are cocksure and the intelligent are full of doubt.” ~Bertrand Russell. Oh yes, I am more doubtful.
This freedom can be crippling. Your confidence can be built to egocentric levels one day and smashed down to nothing the next. You contemplate how taking a job would feel like a sweet retirement. You are drowning in advice and critical feedback from everyone, and forget what it was like when you were in that position. You look around at everyone’s social media show-reels and wonder if they are going through the same.
Many a times, I feel our show-reel is much better than others and another time , I feel we are sitting idle in our office not knowing what to do next.
It’s only now that publications like Inc. are uncovering tales from founders with articles such as The Psychological Price of Entrepreneurship. Is it just psychological crisis they are facing? no, in fact there are hell lot more.
How our company can be profiled in a national newspaper one day, an incredible co-founder join me the next and our growth be up 50% month/month by the New Year– and still feel this way.
It’s natural we want to keep pushing, but it’s important to recall the wins so you can curb any self doubt. One helpful tool is iDoneThis, which will show you what you did rather than your to-do list.
Self-doubt never disappears. Over time, you just get better at dealing with it. It will greet you every time you fall out of your comfort zone and whenever you strive to do something great. But know that it’s not something you have to fear or resent. Your doubts are only thoughts, not your future.”
While enjoying the status quo of a Entrepreneur, I want to do something more — even more. And this time, maybe I can call itself as my first New Year Resolution, this time , I am not letting my spirit go down in any ways. And with a sigh I'm realizing my past and want to do really BIG this time.
